Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Hari ni aku pergi klcc..
nak ambil uniform coz isnin ni
dah start keje kat kinokuniya..
Jacqueline the HR brief aku sket2
pasal kinokuniya ..

abah dah tunggu kat bawah...
so balik naik motor ngan abah..
tak smpai berapa minit..
abah ckp abah pening..
so abah suh aku picit badan dia..
jadi aku pun urut lah badan abah
masa naik motor tu..

kat simpang traffic lite
tetibe aku rasa motor senget...
terus jatuh ke arah kanan..
abah pengsan.. aku sgt panic..
mcm xtau nak buat apa..
coz semua nyer secara tiba2...
ada sorang brother ni..
tolong angkat abah bangun
n bwk abah ke tepi..

perasaan aku masa tu hanya Allah je yg tahu..
bila abah dh sedar..
aku tahan teksi untk bwk abah balik..
tinggal lah aku ngan motor...

aku xtau nk buat apa..
masa tu yg aku tau.. aku nangis je..
aku menggeletar.. kalu nk bwk motor x boleh..
silap hari bulan aku lak eksiden...

aku call ramai org...
tapi semua x angkat..
lagi deras air mata aku...
aku tau siapa yg aku boleh harapkan..
tapi aku xnak call dia..
aku dh xnak libatkan dia dlm hidup aku lagik..

tapi aku dh takde pilihan..
aku call jugak dia..
and dia jawab...
dengar je suara dia terus
hati rasa teramat lega..
tp suara aku tersekat2
x mampu nk meluah kan kat dia apa yg terjadi...

terus aku letak telefon..
coz aku x mampu nk bgtahu dia..
pastuh dia msg aku.. tanya kenapa n aku kat mana..
aku kuat kan diri.. aku call dia lagik sekali..

and aku bgtau dia apa yg terjadi..
dia mmg x menghampa kan..
dia dtg tolong aku dgn bwk helmet di tgn...
kawan dia hntar dia kat situ..

Ya Allah.. aku sgt gembira...
dia try start motor abah n hantar aku balik...
kawan dia terus blah.. aku tanya dia..
mcm mana dia nak balik umah..
dia ckp.. pandai2 dia lah..

atas motor.. aku nangis...
air mata aku sgt murah..
aku mmg x kan mampu untuk lupa kan dia..
dalam keadaan kami dh xde apa2...
dia masih care ttg aku... dia sanggup buat apa saja untk aku..
makin jiwa ni memberontak ingin kan dia...

sampai rumah... aku teman dia tunggu teksi..
sekarang ni.. aku kat umah.. abah dlm bilik
tgh berehat... aku risau sgt dgn apa yg menimpa abah td..
aku x yakin nk bg abah bwk motor or kete lagik..
aku takut kejadian yg sama berulang kembali..
tapi aku bersyukur.. takde apa2 yg serius berlaku...

Ya Allah.. terima kasih byk2 dgn kecelakaan yang KAU turun kan untk
menduga aku dan abah.. Aku terima ini semua sbg ujian dariMU..
lindungilah kami dari kecelakaan dan bencana... Dan kau berkatilah
sahabat ku itu.. limpahkanlah dia dengan kurniaan rezeki yg halal dan
kesempurnaan hidup...

its 1.12 pm ..
tick tock tick tock..
life getting boring each second..
well i only hv less than a week
to be a home freak.. coz by next week..
starting monday i will be at kinokuniya bookstores...
duhhh?! not shopping books but working ..
well.. Teresa didnt mention that i get the job..
but she did call me on the phone and asked me
to come to the office to pick up the uniform..
why the hell she asked me to do that unless if i got the job..
so based on my speculation skills .. i think i hv made it..
the interview was nitemare .. i still can remember it..
it was heavy raining .. i can see it from the window behind Teresa..
the water runs down so quickly like it sweats .. just like me..
sweats like hell.. hoping the interview end quickly...

so.. by next week..
bye bye boring life...
and hello working life..
im gonna enjoy that moment..
afterall kinokuniya is one of my favret bookstores..
if i landed my feet at KLCC .. it is a must to go there..
tho i didnt buy any book ..

i just love busy life..
just like before when i was working at KTM..
i dont even have time for my personal life..
i want it back.. i mean.. i want my busy life back..
i hate thinking bout my personal life..
especially about boys and love and boys and love...

i thought when im through him..
when im over him..
when im letting him go..
my life would be better..
life without boys in my life..
wow~ im so loving it..

but not even one second past as i announced
to the world that im single..
the virus started attacking me..
untill now.. why the hell u GUYZ wont leave me alone..
i just got my heart broken tho im the one who dumped him..
im not ready to commit with anyone rite now..
so stop acting like u care what i feel.. my situation..
it just making me sick.. u think u just being charming and
i will fall for u.. no it just making it worse ..
it disgusts me.. annoys me...

so stop rite there ok boys..
i dont need a toy rite now..
i dont want to come out and play..
im welcoming u if u honestly sincerely
enter into my life just bcoz wanted to be my friend..

but if you have something on ur mind...
just get ur ass out from my life..
im not saying this to one particular person..
its to all of u... and im not on a PMS...
im wise rite now ok.. i know what im saying...












Bismillahirrahmaniirahim..
Assalamualaikum guyz n girls..
tak tau nk ckp apa sebenarnya..
tp jari jemari yg halus mulus ni rasa
gatal je nk menaip.. so here goes..

i just came home from my 3 days camping..
which mean dah 3 hari laa aku melepaskan
dia.. melepaskan dia bukan bmaksud
aku dh melupakan dia.. tidak sama sekali..
cuma melepaskan perasaan atau kuarantin kan
perasaan cinta pada dia untuk seketika
sementara menunggu perasaan ini pudar atau
hilang..

it takes time tho.. so im giving myself a space..
slowly..and gently i let him go.. coz hati aku ni
sgt fragile.. xbleh disentap mcm tu je.. nanti sakit..
so kene slow2..

better gak kami berkawan mcm ni..
xde gaduh2.. kalau ada apa2... asyik gaduh je..
masyaAllah.. bagus mcm ni je..
siang td jumpe dia.. lepak..borak.. sgt besh..




Ain N Huda

cedey la plak.. dh lama x jumpe Huda..
kwn baik ku.. cyg dia sgt.. lepas rindu kat
tepon je la.. dia dh bz ngan keje baru dia..
huahuahuahuahua~~~



cedey gak la.. Ika.. fasi kat kem
dh x bleh masuk kem coz dpt tawaran
masuk matriks penang for 1 year..
but congrates to u tho...

2 minggu berturut2 kem motivasi UPSR..
so..kene jadi mcm kanak2 la.. coz layan kanak2..
dpt keje baru daa.. ajar budak moral english
n ajar budak2 math.. hahaha jadi cikgu ain lak..
mcm kelakar...

i enjoy what im doing..
thank you Allah for this calmness ..
YOU know what YOU are doing..
tapi Ya Allah.. Jika dia yg terbaik untuk ku..
dunia dan akhirat.. KAU kembalikan lah dia pada ku..
amin amin!!!

Tepat jam 1.30 petang 21 May 2009..
aku telah memutuskan hubungan dengan
seorang insan yg amat aku sayang...

tapi ini yang terbaik buat kami berdua...






Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Sunday 17th may..
zul and i went to klcc to watch Tom Hanks new movie..
Angel And Demon

i thought it was a ghost story..
but it was not.. the story is about
a group of people who known as 'illuminati'
comes to make a revenge towards the catholic priest
at Vatican City Rome...

im not quite understood with the story
actually since it was based on their history..
so it was quite blur for me..
the 'illuminati' was a group of free thinker
during the 1773 who believe in science logic..

so..the catholic pope those days kidnapped them..
tortured them by marked their body with a cross symbol
and killed them all...

the illuminati wanted to take revenge and they
kidnapped four cardinal and mark each of them
with fire..water..air and earth.. and killed them all brutally ..

well..it so complicated..
but it was nice tho..
i gv them 5 stars ..

so.. watch it folks..
u wont regret...




Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Assalamualaikum kawan2 yang sudi meluangkan masa membaca
tulisan hati saya..

kalau diperhatikan setiap post saya..
byk menyatakan problem2 yg sy hadapi..
and ada jugak sedikit santapan rohani..

well..setiap tips2 yg berkaitan keagamaan tu
adalah salah satu cara untuk saya
memujuk hati sy sendiri setiap kali
sy dilanda keresahan..

ok..maybe post sy kali ni bunyi mcm sy agak excited..
well.. bukan nyer masalah sy dh selesai..
tidak sama sekali.. belum selesai2 lagik..
cuma apa yg dh selesai ialah..
sy dah dapat apa yg sy mahukan selama ni..

sy dh dpt ketenangan..
alhamdulilah.. tak tahu kenapa..
bila fikir ttg masalah cinta dan kerjaya..
perasaan tu dh lain sket..
kalu sebelum ni mcm frust n byk nangis..
tp skang ni.. rasa mcm rileks..

mungkin kerna berkat doa saya..
mungkin kerna Allah perkenankan doa saya..
mungkin ye mungkin tidak..
apa yg pasti semua nya datang dari Allah SWT..







mungkin benar apa yg diperkatakan oleh salah
seorang sahabat saya.. saya ni sebenarnya
dahagakan kasih sayang Allah..
hmmmm... teruknyer aku ni..
patutlah resah semacam.. rupa2 nyer
dh lama aku x jumpe ALLAH (solat)
kalau jumpe pun.. mcm nk cepat je..

itu kesalahan paling besar yg
aku kompem akan cube sedaya upaya perbaikki nya..
insyaAllah...


"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139







I woke up this morning at around 9.50 am...
Damn! i hate to wake up early today coz
i was feeling sooo good lying myself on the bed..
obviously after last 2 night i cant get my eyes shutt..
crazily thinking till cant sleep..

so.. today anis , wan and i went to KLCC...
we trying our luck at Kinokuniya n Parkson ...
i just went there to drop off my resume and
they will call me later for an interview...

surprisingly for me coz at first..
huda..anis n i should go for an interview at putrajaya...
the interview is today (wednesday) .. but we cancel it last minute
due to distance.. its so damn far..

and last nite.. on the phone...
he told me.. he and that women is going for an
interview at putrajaya... perrgghhh~!!
imagine if we all go at the same place..?
it would be a reunion of a "happy" family... hahahaha

wow~ so romantic.. two young couple go interview together..
it would be very grateful if they both get a job at the same place...
thats just disgust me... and very annoying ...

pity her.. very pitiful ... pity myself too coz
we both fall in love with the same guy ..
who`s lucky? the boy of course...

whatever... anything...



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